Lots going on, much stress little energy, so on and so forth. Something had to give; unfortunately for me, it was the things I enjoy – writing this blog and taking photographs. I haven’t been out with my camera in almost two weeks. It’s summer for crying out loud! Officially so today. I need to do something about that, not let it go on any longer.
As you might know, I do a bit of photography. Because of that, I notice things like light and shadow. I think most visual artists do. Occupational hazard. If you don’t notice, not really sure how you accomplish anything. Something I’d noticed when I moved back to Ohio from Colorado was the way the sun – particularly in the summer – brightens up the area. It’s quite a bit more humid here than it is in Colorado. The air out there is thin enough, it can’t hold much water at all. It rains at 50% humidity. Here, on the other hand, the air is plenty strong enough that even at 100% humidity, it’s not necessarily going to rain. Miserable then, because when that happens there’s also rarely a breeze to move it around, unless it’s just blowing across the ground, lifting the heat from the sidewalk, because it just wasn’t radiating enough heat.
Gets a little unpleasant.
Anyway, what I’d noticed is how the humidity affects the quality of the light. I figure the humidity in the air acts much like a magnifying glass does*; the best word I can think for it is sharp. When it’s really humid, if you pay attention, it almost seems that you can see individual water droplets. Each one of those has a little light from the sun in it, a pinprick of energy and heat, magnified by the sheer number of droplets in the air.
That’s the best way I can explain it. It makes the light more golden, regardless of the time of day, providing a coloring I only saw at sunset or sunrise (I did see a few of those) in Colorado. Even when it rained, which wasn’t often, I didn’t see it after it stopped. Not enough moisture in the air, I guess. I haven’t figured out, yet, how to make that work for me.
With all those tiny droplets and their tiny point of energy from the sun, just hanging there, not moving, it gets oppressively hot. At least, that’s my theory. I suppose I could actually look that sort of thing up and see how accurate it is, but I don’t wanna. Any atmospheric scientists out there want to comment? No? Okay. If you change your mind…
Sometimes I think out loud^; gets a little weird.
For instance, one of the things that’s crossed my mind most recently – it has in the past, too, if I’m honest – is what is my alignment? Lawful Good? Neutral Evil? These are important questions.+
If I were a made-up person – a topic for another discussion, perhaps – would I be one who follows the rules/laws because they are the rules/laws, and without them there would be anarchy? Would I do what I could to get what I want, regardless of the consequences to others? Would I be the type of person who does good even if it is breaking the law?
Well, because this is the internet, someone has already made such a test. Naturally, I had to take it to see how I shake out. Gotta admit, not particularly surprised with the result.
True Neutral or Neutral Neutral, is called the “Undecided” or “Nature’s” alignment. This alignment represents Neutral on both axes, and tends not to feel strongly towards any alignment. A farmer whose primary overriding concern is to feed his family is of this alignment. Most animals, lacking the capacity for moral judgment, are of this alignment. Many roguish characters who play all sides to suit themselves are also of this alignment. Some Neutral characters, rather than feeling undecided, are committed to a balance between the alignments. They may see good, evil, law and chaos as simply prejudices and dangerous extremes. Mordenkainen is one such character who takes this concept to the extreme, dedicating himself to a detached philosophy of neutrality to ensure that no one alignment or power takes control.
I did mention the fatigue and exhaustion, right? Well, it’s affecting my attention span, too. There’s a reason I preferred to write these first thing in the morning instead of the middle of the day. I do have some time off coming up. Not going anywhere, but I do have a few things I’ll be attending. My HS alumni picnic, for instance. Special kind of family, that. Some of us have some incredible life events since graduating, but there was something special about that place that defined our lives. A lot of valuable life lessons learned there, and in a relatively safe environment that nonetheless taught us about disappointment and loss, social politics, and how to work effectively with people you can’t stand. I was always a bit jealous of those who got to be there from 4th grade on.
Well, I have work to do. It’s Saturday; it’s the first day of Summer in the northern half of the globe. The longest day of the year. Go out and enjoy it – it’s all downhill from here.
*Because surely no scientist in the history of the world ever considered how water behaves like a magnifying glass and increases the focus of light or anything.
^Think out loud, type out loud, potato, potahto.
+Fly, Geek Flag, fly!